Geesh where have I been???

Geesh! I haven't been on to blog in a long time. Its time to get started again. Things have been busy around our house. Aaron was working at TPI but is now currently laid off. But will be returning to go back overseas next month :( But we will make the best of it as we did before.
Emmalie and Thomas both had a great year at school and are doing sooo well. We are looking forward to next year can't believe Emmalie will be a 1st Grader!
I myself have started a new adventure. Itty Bitty Prettys! I have started making boutique style hairbows. Ribbon onesies and ruffle shirts and onesies. Bowholders and sooo much more. Its a blast I love being able to use my creative talents again. I used to do stuff like this all the time and now i get to do it and I totally love it and even make a little bit of money :)
Anyway I have a fan page on facebook, and just today started up a blog where I will post things as well for those who don't get on facebook but would still love to see what I'm doing.
Well anyway it is late and I'm sleepy now! lol Now just gotta get on here and post more lol :)

Emmalie Turns 6!

So last week my beautiful little baby turned 6. Although she isn't much of a baby any more and it shows. She is now a beautiful little young lady. It is so hard to believe six years have passed since she was born.
At 6 years old she is an amazing big sister and very protective of those little ones, Gracie has her big sissy wrapped around her finger and Emmalie loves to cart her around.
Very talkative and full of energy.
She loves dance. This year we took a big step and added another dance class so she is in tap, ballet, jazz and tumbling! It keeps her busy but she enjoys it.
She loves kindergarden, and seems to be excelling.
She is somewhat bossy but being the big sister and 6 its not unexpected.

I am so thankful and blessed to be able to say she is mine! What an amazing little girl! I love you Miss Emmalie Elisabeth JoAnn!

This kid gives me nightmares!

My kiddos have always being daring and adventurous, But I tell you what this little boy, gives me nightmares. For as shy and reserved of a little boy he is when unfamiliar people are around you would think I maybe had a chance to have a calm child. lol! Not so much. Mr. Logan Allen is determined to make mommy sweat!

Here a few pictures of his most recent adventures.

♥♥♥♥♥♥NEVER ENOUGH♥♥♥♥♥♥

So today as I am having a bad day I tend to look back and remember my Momma. My angel in heaven watching over me and my little ones taken from this earth way to soon. I found an old Journal of mine from High School and just thought I would share some of the poems and story's that kept me going in those tough times.


*Never Enough*
Sometimes I know the words to say,
Give thanks for all you've done,
But then they fly up and away,
As quickly as they come.

How could I possibly thank you enough,
The one who makes me whole,
The one to whom I owe my life,
The forming of my soul.

The one who tucked me in at night,
The one who stopped my crying,
The one who was the expert,
At picking up when I was lying.

The one who saw me off to school,
And spent sad days alone,
Yet magically produced a smile,
As soon as I came home.

The one who made such sacrifices,
To always put me first.
Who lent me my broken wings,
in spite of how it hurt.

Who painted my world a rainbow,
When it filled with broken dreams,
Who explained it all so clearly,
When nothings what it seemed.

Are there really words for this?
I find this question tough...
Anything I wanted to say,
Just didn't seem enough.

What way is there to thank you?
For your heart, your sweat, your tears,
For ten-thousand little things you've done,
For oh-so-many years

For changing with me as I changed,
Accepting all my flaws,
Not loving "cause you had to"
But loving "Just Because"

For never giving up on me
When your wits had reached their end,
For always being proud of me,
For being my Best Friend.

And so I came to realize,
The only way to say,
The only thank you that is enough
is clear in just one way.

Look at me from above,
See what I've become.
Do you see yourself in me?
The job that you have done.

All your hopes and all your dreams
The strength that no one sees
A Transfer over many years
Your best was passed to me.

Thank you for the gifts you gave,
For everything you did.
But thank you, Momma. Most of all
For making dreams come true.

Flop :(

Feeling a little blue today, Been racking my brain to try and get started making this more interesting I guess, or heck just post more in general.

I have tons of things running through my brain all day that would be fantastic to post and I sit down to the computer and flop! Nothing.

I'm tired of feeling less than average or second best. I feel like there is always someone a step ahead of me trying to show me up or make me look bad.

I'm tired of feeling like the one to make all the effort in friendships. I'm tired of the drama and the who did that or said what. I'm not into that anymore.

I'm tired of feeling like the odd ball, afterthought, or pity invite. I sign into my facebook or myspace and see all these people or so called friends and I feel like it is all a joke. They don't care about me or my family. Or I see people who I used to be so close with that act as if I don't even exist anymore. I guess I am just not good enough for them, I don't quite measure up to there standards, not as pretty or as fun or like to party. I don't have money and we are barely scraping by most of the time, I'm not a fortunate as most are with instant baby sitters or grandparents lining up to take my kids. Heck I have 4 kids so going out takes planning and apparently that is too much for my "friends"

I guess I am thankful for those few friends that to show they care and call or text or actually act interested in my life. And to those who don't I guess at this point I'm saying oh well, I'm tired and I'm done. You know where to find me.

Turn it around in 2010

Its obvious my blogging got off to a slower start than i had orginally thought. Well I am hoping to change that this year.

I'm hoping to make this the best year ever. While 2009 was an eventful year, I am hoping for something a little more normal shall we say, If that is possible. Hahaha!

2009 brought loads of milestones for our little ones and some not so fun stuff as well.

Emmalie turned the big 5 and finished her 3rd year of dance, which she loves. She is very independent and never stops talking.

Thomas finished his first year of preschool, and also attended summer school. He loves school and its doing wonders for him in lots of ways.

Grace and Logan had they're very first birthday, walking, teething, talking and soo much more.

2009 also brought our very first deployment for Aaron, which wasn't soo much fun. He left April 4th and returned home on October 28th. Luckly for us it was a short deployment. We had some bumps here at home while Aaron was gone, but we have some amazing family and friends, I don't know that i could have gotten through any of it without them.

Aaron returned home just in time for Thomas ' 4th birthday, which we celebrated with a half coming home party for daddy and a half birthday party for Thomas.

Coming home for Aaron also ment coming home to no job. Thankfully shortly after he got home he made some phone calls and got hired on to TPI at the end of November.

We spent Thankgiving with family in Minnesota, and dispite the weather and having to postpone some Christmas' we had a great Christmas at home with the kids.

We spent New years eve ringing in the new year with a very dear friend of mine. Although myself and her were the only ones who actually made it to the new year awake we still had a fantastic time.

I'm excited to leave 2009 in the past and start off this new year 2010. Heres to a good one and good things to come.

Off to a slow start

Hello fellow bloggers! A good friend of mine told me I should get into blogging as it may be therapeutic. Well I opened the account about 2 weeks ago and this is the first I have done anything. So I am off to a bit of a slow start, but hopefully things will calm some and I can get started. Looking forward to it!